Must learn to admit when I fail – and take the rap

Yesterday she was furious with me because I hadn’t done a simple task with our son good enough. She was right, there was some things I should have taken care of, but I didn’t.

She blamed me and was very angry with me. This was a normal everyday quarrel between spouses, nothing more. But my reaction was to act as a stupid child, trying to tell her that I wasn’t the one who failed, she was….. stupid me, acting like a spoiled child who couldn’t take responsibility for my own failures…

A special observation about my reaction was that, in my mind, I started making this quarrel a question about her not giving me enough sexual attention and therefore she had no right to blame me for not taken proper care of our child. How stupid is this!

I went early to bed, had acted like a spoiled child all night, not talking to her, not serving her.

This morning all this is clear to me. I was very very stupid last night.

Must learn to take more care, must learn not to act like a child when she blames me. Must listen to her, must bow my head, learn and ask for her forgiveness.

This morning I was up early during som chores. She is still asleep. Must apologize for my stupid behaviour.

Must learn to take blame from her, must lean not to act like a child.